I have inexplicably been feeling mighty down over the past couple of months. It is the most painful emotion one can experience other than grief over the loss of a loved one. I have been lucid enough to notice some things and I want to share my observations with you.
Everyone has times where they feel blue for whatever reason. Most of the time, when you are sad, there is a reason behind it and there is a solution forthcoming. When you are truly depressed, there seems to be no rhyme or reason for it and you feel like a sloth. Not that you are lazy but it takes great effort and energy just to do ANYTHING other than breathe. If you are lucky enough to talk yourself into doing something, washing the dishes for example, it is an extremely long conversation with yourself that you almost do not win. Reluctantly, you get up to do the task. This can be something that you do every day or something that you have to do (like the dishes) or something that you enjoy doing as part of your routine (I love doing the family laundry.)
Even if you are lucky enough to get started, your follow through has deserted you and you probably wont finish the job. Like I said before, I love to do laundry and usually get it done in one day, amidst the other million things I do around the house. Because I have a big family, it does take about 5-6 loads to do everything and that is when I don't decide to wash the curtains and the beds too. Since I have been depressed, that same 5-6 loads becomes a never ending cycle of load after load after load. I find that I believe myself to have accomplished something when there is a mountain of clothes waiting to be folded (my favorite part) and I just look at it and become overwhelmed and give myself some excuse to walk away. Its. Just. Too. Hard.
So you are inexplicably sad, your follow through is shot all to hell and now the things that you loved to do before are just like....why? Reading? Out of the question. Writing? You see how much I have done lately. Smiling? THAT hurts too much. Even if it is fake.
No wonder depressed people are so hard to console. Life just sucks and for no reason at all. I mean, my family is fine, job is going great, the bills are paid. My husband is happy. No fighting or arguing. But it hurts to just exist. Ugh.
I do believe, however, I am on the upside of this thing. I have never felt this way for this long before and I am not sure how to approach things. I actually got through 85% of the laundry yesterday before I decided I had done enough. Maybe things are getting better? In the mean time, I sat in my chair and actually cried for no reason. I was getting ready for work and started to bawl like a baby for about 3 minutes. Horrible. Horrible. Horrible. No reason, just seemed like the thing to do at the time.
What kinds of things have you noticed when you or someone you know has the blues.
What do YOU think?
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Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Still in the crapper and it is a New Year
If you were to put me back to about 12 years ago and tell me I would be a wet blanket when it comes to holidays, I would have laughed in your face. I must tell you that 2013 put a bitter taste in my mouth when it comes to a lot of things. Holidays were the most affected by this crappy state our country has found itself in. I imagine 2013 being the closest thing to the Depression of the 30's that we can get before rich people start plummeting to their deaths off the empire state building again.
No, I do not believe the economic conditions of this country have met the demise of the pockets of the wealthy. Not yet. They have been affected very little by the things that our current government is submitting the citizens of this country to. It is the average citizen and certainly the poor that are in the proverbial rock and a hard place.
Working full time means that you simply have a job. Unless you are doubling what minimum wage has to offer, you are not even scraping the top of what you need to sustain your family and just survive. On top of that, if you have children, that is even worse. Children are in more danger in this world than they ever have been and latch key kids are nearly illegal anymore as well as the fact that there are a great many expenses when you have children on top of what you are already have. To continue on this vein, the cost of utilities are going up, the taxes on purchases are increasing, and the cost of everything in general is skyrocketing. All the while, those that make the good money are being replaced by some worker who is so desperate for a job that they will be willing to do your job plus three others for half of what you are being paid. Companies will definitely replace you for that. That is less they have to pay for three times the work. I can see that makes sense for the pocket of the big corporation. Does it make sense for them in the long run? Probably not because they will go through twice as many workers before there is one that is willing to be their sheeple and beckon to their every call.
Us average citizens are now working for nothing to get nothing and are terribly miserable. Further, we are facing increasing expenses that we cannot afford and this is just to LIVE. Once you get to the point that you are unable to maintain, you lose everything and are faced with homelessness then the rich people want to kick you around like a rock and treat you like you are beneath the dirt under their shoes. Where does that get you? Absolutely nowhere. The owners of the companies making the products and services have to then increase the prices of what they offer just so they can maintain and it is still losing revenue because less people can afford their commodities.
While the affects of the poor are upward reaching and things are terribly hard, what the rich can do is not something that the rest of us can. They have a hoard they are sitting on and while there is still some sustenance to that hoard, they are ok. The rest of us are out of luck only to find the government forcing us to spend money we do not have on things we are too busy working our fingers to the bone to use.
Has it become a socialistic tendency in this country? Maybe.
What do YOU think?
No, I do not believe the economic conditions of this country have met the demise of the pockets of the wealthy. Not yet. They have been affected very little by the things that our current government is submitting the citizens of this country to. It is the average citizen and certainly the poor that are in the proverbial rock and a hard place.
Working full time means that you simply have a job. Unless you are doubling what minimum wage has to offer, you are not even scraping the top of what you need to sustain your family and just survive. On top of that, if you have children, that is even worse. Children are in more danger in this world than they ever have been and latch key kids are nearly illegal anymore as well as the fact that there are a great many expenses when you have children on top of what you are already have. To continue on this vein, the cost of utilities are going up, the taxes on purchases are increasing, and the cost of everything in general is skyrocketing. All the while, those that make the good money are being replaced by some worker who is so desperate for a job that they will be willing to do your job plus three others for half of what you are being paid. Companies will definitely replace you for that. That is less they have to pay for three times the work. I can see that makes sense for the pocket of the big corporation. Does it make sense for them in the long run? Probably not because they will go through twice as many workers before there is one that is willing to be their sheeple and beckon to their every call.
Us average citizens are now working for nothing to get nothing and are terribly miserable. Further, we are facing increasing expenses that we cannot afford and this is just to LIVE. Once you get to the point that you are unable to maintain, you lose everything and are faced with homelessness then the rich people want to kick you around like a rock and treat you like you are beneath the dirt under their shoes. Where does that get you? Absolutely nowhere. The owners of the companies making the products and services have to then increase the prices of what they offer just so they can maintain and it is still losing revenue because less people can afford their commodities.
While the affects of the poor are upward reaching and things are terribly hard, what the rich can do is not something that the rest of us can. They have a hoard they are sitting on and while there is still some sustenance to that hoard, they are ok. The rest of us are out of luck only to find the government forcing us to spend money we do not have on things we are too busy working our fingers to the bone to use.
Has it become a socialistic tendency in this country? Maybe.
What do YOU think?
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